Well, Sister told me last night I shouldn't blog today. That I should take the day off. But, I just couldn't not write in my website journal. For all to read...including myself and my family.
A real touching moment last night.
You know, I think we all go through times of extreme love as well as irritation at our siblings. At least my family has I'll admit. I know they've been irritated at me many times. It happens in every family, I'm sure of it. Not really sure why I'm saying that, it just popped into this sponge of a 5:30 a.m. brain that I'm sportin.
Last night was a wonderful hour of peace between four siblings who dearly love each other, and our mother.
Clay arrived last night. I feel so sorry for him because on top of a pretty severe case of the flu he developed Bells Palsy. It will go away (and Kim and I thought he looked pretty distinguished with it!) haha!
Anyway, what a bonding hour we all had. Just the four of us and mom. Making a tough decision to remove the tubes. Mom would have wanted this. She NEVER complained. She NEVER wanted us to worry about her. I hear people complain about their moms over and over. You know just about neediness and stuff and I just have never been able to enter in to that conversation because mine never complained about anything. Another blessing God has bestowed on me. A lesson that I hope I will carry throughout my life. I want to follow in my mother's footsteps.
So, as I'm writing right now, I want to tell you the advice from the doctors, nurses and hospice, we made the really difficult but compassionate decision to remove all tubes from mom and just continue pain management.
I want to thank each and every one of you for your continued prayers for myself, my family and especially my mom.
Please continue to pray for peace and relief from pain as my mom makes this transition to be with our Heavenly Father.
May God bless you today and every day.
Have a wonderful Wednesday y'all.
xo
kb
Thanks for writing Kendall. You know that I also wrote...it's great therapy:) I look first thing each morning to see how your mom is. I have a feeling that many are doing this. Lifting you all up in prayer......
ReplyDeleteKendall, you and your sister and brothers are all an inspiration to us all. I love you all!!!
ReplyDeleteAunt Ellen
When my children were small I told them what you and I know...... friends come and go and you out live your parents but it is your sibling who walk your whole life with you. I am so very thankful you have yours to walk this chapter with. A very difficult and oddly easy decision you all had to make. Difficult because you were designed as children of God to have hope and you all can't imagine life without her. Easy because you cannot hardly bare to see your precious mother suffer like this anymore. I hope for and pray peace for your day. I pray that this transition is not long or difficult for your sweet mother. Sending you hugs. Get lots of hugs from your siblings. You will be in my thoughts.
ReplyDeleteMy heart goes out to you and your family. May God continue to give you the strength to walk your mom right to the door of Heaven and into the arms of the Lord. It is all so amazing when you think of it. We see babies brought into this world straight from Him and we send loved ones back when it is time. Peace be with you.
ReplyDeleteLauren
May your mom find the comfort and peace that she needs. I know this was a difficult decision for my mom and her siblings when my grandparents were sick. Sending prayers to you and your family during this trying time. Good to know you all are there for each other.
ReplyDeleteAnd now she is in God's hands...I wrote to you about my father's death yesterday. I found great comfort in knowing that he would never suffer again, that he would not grow old and be unable to do the things he enjoyed, that he would be in my heart forever watching over me. Gods blessings on you all on this journey with your mother as you help her find her way to her heavenly home.
ReplyDelete“What seems too difficult for us is a sure sign that it belongs to God.”
ReplyDelete— Marie DePree
Kendall,
ReplyDeleteI am so sad ( and so very sorry to read this)! But, with that being said, you all did the right thing. I truly feel that we all want to leave this world with just a little dignity. Your Mom would have wanted it too. Being a person that has lost both parents it is a very hard time in our lives. My Mom also died around Christmas time. But, I know in my heart that they are having a beautiful life with God now. My heart hurts for you all, and will be praying for your family. God speed Mom!!!!
Then Job arose, and rent his mantle, and shaved his head, and fell down upon the ground, and worshipped, And said, Naked came I out of my mother's womb, and naked shall I return thither: the Lord gave, and the Lord hath taken away; blessed be the name of the Lord.
ReplyDelete-- Job 1: 20-21
My heart aches for you...for all you have had to endure the last few weeks. I too have been through some tough loss the last few weeks....not personal loss. But friends of friends of friends. Heart breaking loss of unborn babies along with those that have lived their long lives.
My heart is overflowing truly believing that the Lord giveth and the Lord taketh. He is the reason for anything and everything we know.
My prayers are in abundance for you and your family.
Hi Kendall,
ReplyDeleteI just came over via Slim and I believe you are on my facebook so lovely to meet you this way as well. I am so sorry to hear of your mother and understand the most difficult decision you face..........it is not easy. But she needs you there most of all and that will be her greatest comfort, Thinking of you and i will visit again. Prayers too.