Right now I'm lying in a Hospital bed and it's Christmas morning. Mom has been in and out of lucidity all night. She is on Morphine, Dolatin (or whatever the heck that is) and Adaville (again, not a doctor) but I think it's an anxiety drug. None of those will knock her out. Can you believe that? What a fighter. We will get her calmed down and then 5 minutes later....wham....a screeching, screaming soul comes out for all of the hall to hear. As I feel so sorry for my mother, I also feel very sorry for the rest of the folks on the floor because there is no way they got any sleep either. She is starting to say some audible words which is an improvement from the constant muttering we had ALL day yesterday. So, where do we go from here? Sister, Brothers, and I are just simply at a loss. We aren't sure if this is from severe pain, or fear, or why she is doing this. All I know is she hasn't slept in about 2 days. I believe she is scared to death.....or for death. I want you all to know that I thank you from the bottom of my heart for all the e-mails, FB messages, cards and thoughts and prayers you have sent our way.
We are truly blessed with the angels that surround us.
My wish for you is that you have the Merriest Christmas EVER!!!
Please hug your family and tell them how much you love them on Jesus' special birthday.
I would love it if you could post any specific prayers for me. It would mean the world to me and help comfort me in this really difficult time.
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kb
Sweet Kendall, I pray for your mother's peace. I pray too, for something, that you are to gain from this. That God will give you some glimmer of what that is. You are together, and that has to be easing her fear just a bit. Remind her that she will always be with you, and that she has taught you all so well. You be fine with her gone, watching over you. She might need to know that she has your permission to go.
ReplyDeleteBless you for sharing this with us. At some time we will all have to walk this path. You are brave to let us in.
~Cheryl
I'm praying that you, your family and your mom find the peace that God can bring to you in the times you need it most. I pray that your mom finds relief from pain and fear. Merry Christmas and God Bless!
ReplyDeleteOh Kendall....this brought tears to my eyes. I'll share this right now with Ken. For some reason I thought you may have blogged today. So glad I checked. Haven't checked in a couple of days and wouldn't have even today but jenna just walked away from the computer and left it on. Praying for you all.....
ReplyDeleteKendall, There are no words to describe how difficult it is to watch your parent suffer and feel helpless. I have been there with my father before he died about 6 years ago. I know the path you are walking. He had degenerative disc disease and was in horrific pain until the end. What a wonderful life lesson you are teaching your children to see you walk this with your Mom instead of being at home and trying to celebrate Christmas as usual. You are showing them God's love lavished on your Mom, the value of human life, and having a sacrificial servant's heart. I pray for your peace. I pray for her peace. He is the All-Sufficient, The Great Healer and The Great Comforter. I don't know why His precious children suffer as they do. It must grieve HIm also as I know He loves us all more than we can even imagine. All I know is He will never leave her or you in the midst of this, even when at times it is hard to see Him in action. Bless you Kendall, Bless your Mom!
ReplyDeleteA neighbor who lived down the street in Countryridge.
Wow, Kendall, I will continue praying for comfort, patience, peace and wisdom. I can't imagine what you are feeling. I hope you had a Merry Christmas, your pj's are adorable, as are all the pics. Everytime I look at my "angel faces", I say a little prayer for you, your mom and family! God bless you all!!!
ReplyDeleteThank you everyone for these sweet words of encouragement. I pray for peace for you all as well!
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kb